Redefining Beauty series: Part 1
I was never thin or obese, but always fluffy. Aren’t grandmas’ suppose to be fluffy?? I use to play with my Barbie dolls and wondered why I didn’t look like her. Her long wavy hair, narrow chiseled face, abnormally small waist, long lean legs and beautifully shaped hips. How could I achieve this? Decades, dollars, and many emotions later I found out how.
After my divorce in 2004, I began exercising and changing my eating habits. I lost 35 pounds and was a size 4 depending on what store I shopped. I finally achieved beauty…. right?
Losing weight came with new beasts
My breasts were deflated (very similar to Magda’s from Something About Mary), I had skin on my tummy that rested pleasantly in an unattractive way, and my arms were still soft. So I worked harder!
In the meantime, I ate virtually no carbs but would binge periodically and eat all things in the pantry except the shelves. Office garbage cans contained leftover donuts from morning meetings and were a real temptation. I may have actually gotten one out but my selective memory prevents me from telling.
I had been working in a dream position that required me to lead two exercise sessions a day and I loved it but when I transferred to a desk job, things slowly started to change.
What do you see in this picture?
I chose Cortney from colormecourtney because how she inspires me. Beauty, class, authenticity, high self-esteem, joy, freedom, and more. I see perfect imperfections in a girl that isn’t hiding behind anything. Her colorful attire tells me that. How amazing!
Next week: Find out what the plastic surgeon told me and all the lies I bought but more importantly my first step in TRULY redefining beauty–
- Part 2: Body Image
- Part 3: Body Type
- Part 4: Style Quiz